Life.

Let’s have a chat about future blog content since I abruptly decided to rebrand this blog a short while ago.

Lockdown Musings

It’s strange how often we can take the small things for granted, sometimes they can be one of life’s great pleasures.

Dogs Are Gifts From Above!

My boyfriend and I looked after his mother’s, she is honestly such a delight!
Her name is Cleo and she is an 11-year-old Staffordshire Bullterrier, Ben’s mother acquired her a year ago from her old owner.

She is such a lovely dog, whenever I see her, she bounds straight towards me and showers me with love. I also give her the same love back.
I’ve fallen asleep while she has been over the flat and I woke up to see that she had cuddled with me and pressed her face against mine.

I have always found dogs and animals, in general, to be wonderful, especially to those unfortunate enough to live with mental illness(es).
Animals love unconditionally, you’re their world and they become yours.

Once we get a place of our own, we’re adopting a dog.
They deserve a happy life.

I will be penning better content soon, I just felt I had to write this so I went with my gut instinct.
Enjoy these photos of Cleo.

Much love.
❤

The Joy of Doing Nothing

The Christmas period was very hectic for my boyfriend and me. We both were unfortunately struck down with a chest infection in my case,  he was badly hit with a bad bout of the flu.
So we’ve had a lot of downtime getting over these afflictions.

We’ve had a pretty chill few weeks, he has been focused on Red Dead Redemption 2 and I’ve been having a great time just being sat next to him watching various things on the iPad.
I’ve been a big fan of the show Dark Net on Netflix, I watched a documentary about minimalism and I’ve recently gotten into Dark Mirror again.
I have a draft about the minimalism documentary in my drafts, I am quite proud of it.
I just need to watch it again to make sure I have all the facts I need about it.

I have also been binge-watching Catfish on MTV/Sky Go App.
This show has always been one of my guilty pleasures, I’ve heard stories of it being fake but it doesn’t matter to me.
I find the premise in itself fascinating. The mindset of humans is fascinating in general. Why do they do these things? Is it malice? It is insecurity? So many questions.

It’s so important to take a moment, or more for yourself if you need to.
Self-love/care isn’t selfish.
I’ve had a touch of seasonal depression lately and honestly, just being sat with the iPad exploring new shows has been helping.

Take care of yourself.
Much love.

Grateful For My Boyfriend

4 months ago, I met a very wonderful man. He has changed my life so much in such a short amount of time and I am beyond grateful for that.

I never knew how magical relationships could be until he came into my life. It was the most unexpected thing, but little did I know it would become the best thing I’d ever known.
Without dwelling too much on past relationships, I’ll just say they were always onesided, I felt like I was hiding parts of who I was to appease them and they were just pure toxic.
I spent more time unhappy than anything else and it felt like work, that is not loving, that isn’t good for you, at all.

Ben is beyond incredible, although he hasn’t been in my life as long as other people have been in the past, his impact and support for me overall is something I know will benefit me forever.
I can talk to him about anything. My interest in the subject of murder/serial killers, my love of horror movies, my bad days in regards to mental illness, you name it, he will listen to me.
I know this is a normal aspect of a healthy relationship but I never had this before and boy, is it refreshing!

He knows when I’m sad or panicked and does his best to comfort me. His presence and voice are calming to me. He makes me laugh on days I just want to curl up and cry.
He looks out for my best interest, he refuses to let me wallow when I’m having an off day, he will sit with me when I’m neglecting myself he will call me out on the subject and help me do what I need to do when it comes to self-care. He will ensure I take my medication if for whatever reason I’ve forgotten. He has my best interest at heart as much as I have his in mine.

I am honestly happy just being sat next to him, we don’t even have to speak. We play Pokémon Go together, it means a lot having someone to share that with now. When he plays video games, I often like to sit close to him and watch movies on the iPad.
He even sorted out a small gaming area for me at his flat for me to set up my PlayStation.

To me, he is perfect. He is my soulmate.
On the off chance, you’ve read this, Ben.
I love you.