Life With BPD, Mental Health

Borderline Personality Disorder & Paranoia

Yesterday was rough on the mental health front. I’m not sure what triggered it, but I had a horrible bout of paranoid thoughts.

I’m not sure if this could be triggering for someone, so read ahead with caution.

To try and keep some form of independence, I go to collect my prescriptions/medication in person. As I left the house, I noticed there was a car parked at the bottom of my street.

For whatever reason, it made me feel uneasy. After staring at it for a short amount of time, my thoughts were adamant that it was watching me.

I eventually left and walked down the road, as I past the car, it reversed and drove up the street past me. So, that had me incredibly paranoid that it was the DWP watching me, since I get disability payments.

I was unable to talk myself down from this.

I wish it stopped there, I walked past the local charity shop. One of my favourite pastimes is browsing in them, I noticed that the workers were looking through the window.

I was immediately convinced that they were looking at me. In reality, they were just looking out into the street, I walked past the window, and we made eye contact.

It’s important that we keep the conversation around mental health going, by sharing out experiences, we can help others realise that they are not alone.

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