Insecurity

After reading a post written by a blog called “Discovering Your Happiness”, I hope I’ve written that right.  So, credit where it is due, this post got me thinking that it’d be worth talking about my insecurities right now, if you want to read the post that they wrote, it is here.

Part of this blog is focused on my mental health, I live with a few conditions, anxiety being one of the main culprits. Anxiety and insecurity seem to love working together to making those tough social situations extra uncomfortable.

So, I will talk about the elephant in the room, I am overweight, so in my head, I am the elephant in the room! During my low spells I have shoved so much processed, fast food into my body and between my questionable sleep schedule and me not helping myself, I piled a lot of weight on.
Now that I am a little older and trying to find my place in the world, I hate the idea of going outside and interacting people when I look like this.
I feel disgusting, I hate people taking pictures of me, they never look flattering, too me at least, who knows what they look like to someone who doesn’t hate me!

I am afraid to throw myself back into the dating world, what if they are put off me because of how I look? How could I get into an intimate relationship when I don’t want to be naked around another person? How can I ever look good when I feel like a whale?

This is something that I am slowly learning to come to terms with, I have started an exercise routine and I have lost some weight, baby steps.

Insecurities are a normal part of life so I have learned, it happens to us all, not always for the same reasons but the important thing is that over time, you work towards bettering yourself, for you.  These insecurities do not define who you are and what you’re worth. You are amazing and you have the potential to be great and achieve amazing things!
Do not let them get the better of you! ❤